goodbye, facebook

Here's my last note for facebook -- laying it all bare.

The world is changing. With the inevitable fall of the capitalist system and the upcoming milestone in the evolution of mankind - 2012 - we are on the brink of a turning point for our species. Adapt to the world, learn to live with the universe while understanding our place in it, recognize our incredible connectedness and ability to not only survive but LIVE on this planet -- in short, nothing less than a radical evolution and awakening of a higher, human consciousness is necessary to outlast the current global crisis we've created.

For most of my life I've tried to be somebody I'm not. The world never seemed to want to adhere to the way I saw, heard, experienced things. Of course I now understand this experience for the miraculous, singular one that it is, yet one must recognize their part in the grand scheme of things, acknowledge the interconnectedness of all our stories and lives, and how we play such crucial, mind-altering roles in each others' experiences, to start to begin to fully grasp what the human race is capable of creating.

And yet I find that everyday I must still put on a front. I can count on one finger the number of people who truly understand me for the person I am. In my current social community there is no room to stretch the boundaries of my identity; I feel oppressed and trapped daily, unable to transcend what the government and the media have fashioned as my experience of my life. I finally reached a point where I just began to shout "No more! I can live my own life in a much fuller, more complete and spiritual manner on my own. I don't need to consume your products to be happy. I don't need you to craft my worldview." What is it about truly being ourselves and realizing our potentials that seems so daunting?

Anyways,

Part of attempting to get back in touch -- with myself, with the Earth, and perhaps most importantly, other people in my life -- will be to craft my online identity as to better represent myself as a person. The internet is such an incredible invention for the aid of heightening awareness of consciousness and connectedness, yet it is a controlled system like everything else and presents itself to you only in the manner in which the powers-that-be approve of. I don't want my identity to be swallowed up, and it horrifies me that many people's perception of me is based almost solely on my contributions to websites such as this. I'm a human being, you're a human being -- I'm sick of constantly having to gloss over this in my daily life. Facebook did a good job of trapping me in other people's affairs, creating a kind of passive community where I didn't ever have to directly converse with anybody, ever.

I'm through with that.

In a sense, facebook has come to destroy my sense of social community. Much of my interpersonal conversation during the day occurs online, particularly here, and it deeply saddens me that, at this stage in our development, humans have become so terrified with questions about life, identity, and cosmic place that more and more walls must continually be built around ourselves to shield out other people. I don't want my only interactions with other people to occur so namelessly and ambiguously. I want real human emotions. I don't want to be an ant.* I guess, in the end, this place simply doesn't fulfill my need for communication.

And I'm sick of pretending.

I have a blog: http://lorboscorner.blogspot.com/ I have many things to say, and sometimes I say things worth listening to (I would like to think).

And I'm a member over at evolver.net, a social network for those interested in gaining the knowledge necessary to prepare for a post-capitalist society in modern America, as well as anyone interested in consciousness research and, well, real people. http://www.evolver.net/user/lorbo

And that same old IM I've always had - deadwing12 - is still alive and kicking -- for now.

Many believe that 2012 -- the year in which the Mayan's prophesied a rebirth of the human race -- will signal a drastic and immediate crescendo in the understanding of human consciousness. This isn't just some myth -- the year 2012 (and those surrounding it) marks the historical landmark of the December solstice sun aligning itself with the dark rift in the Milky Way galaxy. The Mayan calender also happens to end on that specific date, December 21, 2012, where the alignment is strongest. It signals the dawn of a new age of man -- an age of creativity, of passion, and of undying spirit.

The world is ours to change**. Don't settle for the way things are. We are capable of far greater things in this lifetime. This is absolutely the most exciting time to be alive*.