www.freegaza.com

Today a ship headed to Gaza called the Spirit of Humanity was captured by Israeli forces. The ship contained a crew of nobel peace winners and congressmen and women, with the intent of bringing supplies, medicine and toys to the dehumanized population of Palestine. The 21 members of the crew are currently being held hostage by the Israeli military while a crew of lawyers are quickly attempting to negotiate their unconditional release.

work in progress

rooomiesss 304 represenrt

sexfest '09

zumiez party crew!

me jared and sue backseat at this fuckshow called couch tour

on the way to albany ny for the zumiez couch tour, oh rapture

here's the cover artwork for my band's upcoming EP. we're currently in the process of ironing out our songs and recording everything so it's juuuussst right.

finally

set up mobile blogging on my new phone. it's an enV touch; i think this is the first time i've ever had a cutting-edge phone, and it's pretty neat i must say. the great perk, of course, is my ability now to upload shit from wherever i'm at, so i'll be posting drawings, songs, tags, quotes, ideas and all sorts of exciting stuff! joy, rapture, and ecstasy indeed.

anyways, here are a few links to some other places i've taken over:

www.myspace.com/cargocults
http://www.evolver.net/user/lorbo

~Tom

testing this shit

"I wondered about the nature of my aspirations, the very supports of my existence; and I began to feel that any life I might have anywhere -- however rich and successful and better furnished -- would only be a version of the life I lived now."

from V.S. Naipaul's A Bend in the River

Up

Just saw Pixar's 'Up' in 3D. By this point it's practically ludicrous how this team can keep topping themselves. Of course 'Up' is incredible. Of course it goes into directions you couldn't ever see coming. Of course it's heart-wrenching, funny, sad, exciting, full of action etc etc. The way movies should be. There's more real human emotion and zest of spirit in Pixar animated films than the majority of the rest of mainstream Hollywood films.

Probably write more tomorrow ... got a bit of a headache, hitting bed.

goodbye, facebook

Here's my last note for facebook -- laying it all bare.

The world is changing. With the inevitable fall of the capitalist system and the upcoming milestone in the evolution of mankind - 2012 - we are on the brink of a turning point for our species. Adapt to the world, learn to live with the universe while understanding our place in it, recognize our incredible connectedness and ability to not only survive but LIVE on this planet -- in short, nothing less than a radical evolution and awakening of a higher, human consciousness is necessary to outlast the current global crisis we've created.

For most of my life I've tried to be somebody I'm not. The world never seemed to want to adhere to the way I saw, heard, experienced things. Of course I now understand this experience for the miraculous, singular one that it is, yet one must recognize their part in the grand scheme of things, acknowledge the interconnectedness of all our stories and lives, and how we play such crucial, mind-altering roles in each others' experiences, to start to begin to fully grasp what the human race is capable of creating.

And yet I find that everyday I must still put on a front. I can count on one finger the number of people who truly understand me for the person I am. In my current social community there is no room to stretch the boundaries of my identity; I feel oppressed and trapped daily, unable to transcend what the government and the media have fashioned as my experience of my life. I finally reached a point where I just began to shout "No more! I can live my own life in a much fuller, more complete and spiritual manner on my own. I don't need to consume your products to be happy. I don't need you to craft my worldview." What is it about truly being ourselves and realizing our potentials that seems so daunting?

Anyways,

Part of attempting to get back in touch -- with myself, with the Earth, and perhaps most importantly, other people in my life -- will be to craft my online identity as to better represent myself as a person. The internet is such an incredible invention for the aid of heightening awareness of consciousness and connectedness, yet it is a controlled system like everything else and presents itself to you only in the manner in which the powers-that-be approve of. I don't want my identity to be swallowed up, and it horrifies me that many people's perception of me is based almost solely on my contributions to websites such as this. I'm a human being, you're a human being -- I'm sick of constantly having to gloss over this in my daily life. Facebook did a good job of trapping me in other people's affairs, creating a kind of passive community where I didn't ever have to directly converse with anybody, ever.

I'm through with that.

In a sense, facebook has come to destroy my sense of social community. Much of my interpersonal conversation during the day occurs online, particularly here, and it deeply saddens me that, at this stage in our development, humans have become so terrified with questions about life, identity, and cosmic place that more and more walls must continually be built around ourselves to shield out other people. I don't want my only interactions with other people to occur so namelessly and ambiguously. I want real human emotions. I don't want to be an ant.* I guess, in the end, this place simply doesn't fulfill my need for communication.

And I'm sick of pretending.

I have a blog: http://lorboscorner.blogspot.com/ I have many things to say, and sometimes I say things worth listening to (I would like to think).

And I'm a member over at evolver.net, a social network for those interested in gaining the knowledge necessary to prepare for a post-capitalist society in modern America, as well as anyone interested in consciousness research and, well, real people. http://www.evolver.net/user/lorbo

And that same old IM I've always had - deadwing12 - is still alive and kicking -- for now.

Many believe that 2012 -- the year in which the Mayan's prophesied a rebirth of the human race -- will signal a drastic and immediate crescendo in the understanding of human consciousness. This isn't just some myth -- the year 2012 (and those surrounding it) marks the historical landmark of the December solstice sun aligning itself with the dark rift in the Milky Way galaxy. The Mayan calender also happens to end on that specific date, December 21, 2012, where the alignment is strongest. It signals the dawn of a new age of man -- an age of creativity, of passion, and of undying spirit.

The world is ours to change**. Don't settle for the way things are. We are capable of far greater things in this lifetime. This is absolutely the most exciting time to be alive*.